As it is

I have less money week to week than I've had in 10 years.

I'm 33, single, no kids.

I don't own a house. I'm not even close.

Why am I feeling good?

They are things I want. Well, the opposite of each of those things is what I want. But I've stopped thinking about them. 

It might be overstating the obvious during this "awakening" the world is going through - I don't believe our time and place is the only period in recent history where this has happened. Every human goes through an awakening. It’s verging on an unconscious habit, to be fully in whatever or wherever I am. 

I'm still afraid at times. Just yesterday, I was on a job and noticed how stressed I was about making a mistake. My chest is tightening thinking about it. But the person I was working for was more chill than I appeared to be. Maybe he was feeling the same?

So there are still pockets. But without pockets, there would be no pants. Sorry, I was trying to think of an analogy similar to "the cracks are how the light gets in". Was that a good one?